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26 November 2004

i cry for you.
i know that you have no idea, but late at night, i do cry for you.
it's really sad.
it seems i dont know you anymore.
everything we have now is quite superficial, dont you think?
its weird why i dont have your email add,
dont have you on msn,
though we were supposed to be (at least) really good friends.
what happened?
i see you go down the drain bit by bit.

i just spent some time and i finally found it.
i wish i didnt
you know you're pulling away from us (well, at least from me)
you think that someone else is the one who really knows you,
perhaps you're right.
i'm sorry i'm not the one to be there anymore
i'm not the one you turn to during the late nights.

to you, i'm just another to invite along
why has it come to this?
i really dont want to go,
but i guess i'm just a sucker for such torture from you.
why dont you tell us (or at least me) anything?
i feel useless
i feel dumb
i feel like i'm being used
i feel helpless

"the only difference is that i love you but i dont love her"
remember this?
i hope so

i still love you,
but i'll lay silent for a while,
see if there's a chance you haven't changed to grow so far from me.

yes, late at night, i cry for you like i'm doing now.

~ { 1:03 AM }
drops of jupiter