This song is dedicated to my biatch:

Happy Biatch-day to you,
Happy Biatch-day to you,
Happy BIATCH-day to Evie Yi-bi-ling Evelyn Wong Yee Leng......
Happy Biatch-day to yooooooou.

My singing sucks so make do lah!

As for the lack of a present,......
We'll see how la..wahahha..
At least the candle holder is pretty..

got back from WM with evie.
feels good just to chill again.
it's like therapy.
maybe she should start charging, LOL!
she was really amused with my phone (again..)
cause she found out that.....my camera phone has....
-effects (love the sepia!)
-timer
-frames
-spot photometry (???wats that)
and.......

!!BURST 4!! Wahhahahha

fun fun but i too lazy to trnsf the photos to my lappy then upload to a host to post here.

To Sheena who still doesn't geddit:

It's not about the schedule.
I'm not kicking up a big fuss, no matter what others might say.
It's bound to blow sooner or later.
It's about you and getting your priorities straight.
It's about you betraying our discussions.
It's about you not understanding what is wrong about betraying our discussions.
Discussions about our private matters.
Discussions that we confide only to each other.
Discussions that blow and allow us to call each other 'fucking nice friends'.
Discussions that we listen and understand and forget the animosity.
Discussions that leave us closer than before.
Discussions that involve sisters.
Discussions that are secret and sacred.

No idea why you don't seem to geddit.
Why i can be so pissed at the betrayal.
It happened to you when evie told doris everything you both discussed about your life with alan.
You were pissed.
And now you're doing the exact same thing.
With someone who isn't the least bit appropriate.

So there you are.
If you still don't get it, then well there's nothing for me to say anymore.
You say the 3 of us isn't the 3 of us anymore.
Since when?
How come only you feel that?
What went wrong?
When did this start?
Let me tell you, IF it did start at all, it prob started when you left us out of the woes in your life and confided in someone else instead.
It seems you have chosen long time ago.
And i hope you live well with your decisions.
Like i said,

You want the Jing Jang Gang back, but you're the only one who dropped out.

trying damn bloody hard to prove nothing is up but obviously it's wrong anyways.
so i give up.
case closed.

had a long talk with eve and sheen..
i deserve it..
but it's over now, at least i hope it is..

~feeling mighty sucky now

Your Seduction Style: The Coquette

You are a pro at playing the age old game of hard to get.Your flirting style runs hot and cold, giving just enough to keep them chasing you.Independent and self-sufficient, you don't need any one person to make you compelte.And that independence is exactly what makes people pursue you.

just read the history and i cried.
people should not have to suffer more than me.
but doris might be right, my time has come and now i'm in luck.
she says i must have planted 'that' plant at home. lol
don't worry girls, i suffered a hell lot more than u ppl and this is my time.
muahahah

anyway i love seeing myself in people's blog.
confirms my existence.

i shall reveal an irony when time comes. someone gotta remind me tho.

bet everyone noticed i disappeared after i dropped my phone, well i guess my brain went down the drain together with it.

basking in the benefits of a scandal? *names have to be HIGHLY protected*
whoever it is will definitely burn. i pity my alter ego.

bla bla bla..i know it makes sense to no one but only the few.

somebody saaaave me.

*names have to be highly protected due to the notority of this blog*

Next:

i feel terribly betrayed. i was fuming. but what the heck.
it aint my business anyway anyhow.
you can look to someone else, somthing else for emotional and mental help.
we're still here and as silent as we can manage to be (which isn't much)
i still have to say i was terribly pissed at the secrecy.
and the selected that COULD have known before us.
still, it's MYOB.
do you think that we never would have found out?
guess who's your best friends in the end?

i will be back soon, if i don't go out of my mind in the mean time

FUCKING BASTARD. I just type ¾ of my entry and the fucking window closed. FUCKING HELL. This adds to the fucked up day it is. I dropped my phone and now it has a fucking big hole at the bottom and it looks like shit. FUCKING computer keeps lagging like fucking shit.

Go to wala for what shit. In the end cause so much trouble. Don’t wan to go then say don’t want to go. What the fuck halfway say ‘why you get so angry with me? I came because of you leh.’ I don’t need your fucking pity or what shit. Don’t always give me that ‘I’m-so-pitiful-you-always-get-angry-at-me’ shit. I told you I don’t want your fucking martini so don’t come and fucking get angry and get pissed because you ordered it and I don’t want it. I fucking told you I don’t fucking want it so it’s your own damn problem.

My fucking sister supposed to show up but she took a fucking damn long 2hours just to show up. If she would just be on time for this once I wouldn’t have all these fucking hell loaded on me in one fucking night.

Just as the fucked up day got bad and I was headed home thinking it’s peace at last. The stupid fucking idiot run up to me and said he wanted to talk. Fuck, didn’t I just say I don’t want to see/hear you? Which part of fucking NO don’t you understand? You want me to cross the road just so you can have your fucking privacy to talk to me? WTF?!

And why the fucking hell do you always give me the same shit about ‘I don’t deserve this, why are you treating me this way, i did nothing wrong, why are you so angry at me, I’ve had enough of you’ crap. If you piss someone off then take the fucking crap you deserve and shut the hell up. Stop with that almighty shit about not deserve the treatment I’m giving you. Then like I told you, LEAVE. Just go and you won’t suffer this misery that you don’t deserve. You’re the perfect and innocent person who always get yelled at. YEAH. Keep telling yourself that, you fucker. When I get fucking crap from you for no reason I just shut up and let it blow over. Not give you a fucked up face and say ‘why are you doing this to me? I don’t deserve this treatment from you, I had enough of you.’ Yeah well if you think you’re such a pitiful victim that everyone else thinks you are then forget about talking to me again. Cause I’m just so evil and unreasonable right? Hah.

You were the fucking one who called for the bill all of a sudden and left us with no drinks and no right to stay there cause we already paid for everything. But I was waiting for my sister to show up. Stop saying ‘it’s just a small matter hui quan, it’s just a small matter why you get so angry? You were the one who said you want to go brekos lor, how would I know?i’m sorry la it’s my fault’ ya right. Don’t say it when you don’t mean it.

And all this ended up with me dropping my phone after talking to Bryant and now there a fucking huge hole in my phone that he just bought me a few days before. I will not forgive nor forget this fucked up night. I have to stare at the fucking gaping hole for as long as I hold the phone and cause Bryant so much heartache cause he just paid a fucking $700 for it. My fucking perfect condition brand new phone now has this fucking huge and ugly scar just because I was so damn fucking hell pissed off. FUCK YOU. I cant bear to look at the phone I just feel like pulling my hair out and tearing my scalp off and jump off some building. I feel extremely fucking guilty cause Bryant took so hard to save the money and find the perfect phone for me and his effort was fucking ruined just like that. He can’t even bear to look at it and ask me to change the cover. It costs like a fucking 100 odd dollars to do so and that’s like fucking shit.

FUCKING hell I just want to kill somebody right now.

today i came home and i read harn's blog. it got me really worried and i soon found out that i wasn't the only one.

i called evie and she said she was just about to ask me too. so i called er. but she wasn't there.

as a last resort, i msged harn and asked her. she wasn't about to say and i apologise if it was abit tactless.

nonetheless, the point i want to drive across is that tho we're from different cliques, this sort of things really bother us. actually, to be honest, we are all very worried.

how can we not be when it even concerns the police?!

so therefore, if u ever read this, harn, tell us when it feels right. the world is too small for us not to find out anyway. we are not kaypo, seriously, just plain concerned. i really wanna know what went on with the police.

anyway i'm down here if you need me (literally). far relative doesn't compare to near neighbours (chinese saying la). i can feel your sorrow seeping thru the floors into my room. hah, kidding.

on another note, Bryant bought me a Sony Ericsson S700i. WHOOPEE. so exciting. camera, radio, mp3. yay.

here's a thought: why do chris, su and er club w/o me and evie? conspiracy? maybe..

i have decided whta to buy B for our 3yr anniversary. gotta check out the price tho..but i'll afford it, cause i am the high society witch. hah.

mah eyes are damn tired now. can barely keep them open, not that they look open anyway.

i believe i have found my perfect blogskin. it's dark and sporty. yay.

no. of days evie has gone missing : approx. 15

i just finished my International Employment Individual Assignment
basically the low-down is that i absolutely had no idea that the University enrolments were on.
needless to say i did not enrol into any.
so it seems that i have an extra year to do absolutely nothing, maybe work.
how could i make such an error?
i'm just ill-disciplined and too caught up in my world.
i never bother to find out what assignments i have and everything.
i always depend on others to tell me what i have to do and hand in.
i guess this is my retribution, always being to unorganized.
one of the most important event of my life and i missed it.

i have been told to call up the university to do a personal enrolment thing but somehow i am procrastinating.
prob cause that's too weird and i am too lazy+embarassed to do so
prob cause i don't have this kind of initiative.
someone slap me into doing it soon.
or maybe it's cause all my friends are guys and they don't have to enrol cause of NS
either way, i'm fucked up.

evelyn is missing for about 2 weeks now. only a phone call and a few smses that i got from her.
it's scary cause i keep thinking that she might be lying in bed, convulsing and dying. (choi!)
anyway if you see this please go out with me soon cause either i'm getting withdrawal symptoms or the prozac is making you a hermit.

"so how does prozac make you feel?" "happy"
lol..of course it doesn't