moving on-this is the hard part.
when even your friends think that you are in the wrong and don't really deserve the pity.
it seems whoever did the breaking up wouldn't need much consolation.
it's harder to see the other person moving on like they are fine with it.

yes, i may have someone to fall back on now
but we both know that somewhere inside, i'm still stuck at Day 1.
it seems i never left it.

i'm not ready.
i think i'm selfish.
it's like novels when you are sad when the other is over it.
you go "what? i'm only worth this little misery?"

being labelled the 'bad guy' has consequences.
i am unsure of myself and whether i am able to handle relationships.
"what if i hurt someone again?"

i am a sinner.