it just hit me, that after so long, right now, that i have lost V.
weird. but true.

my bday just went by, it's the shortest but bestest bday i ever had.
though i nv go celebrate wit my girls, even though there's only one! lol..
if i did it would be such a huge topping on the cake.
i thank Evie for kicking up a huge storm and cussing at everyone's sorry arses for their bo-chupness at a 'sister's' bday.
i may not deserve their kind attention, but at least Evie cares, so that's a celebration itself! (so ya, we'll party one day soon ya?)
but it's a reality check to know who seriously cares.
i'm sorry i dissed my family and refused a celebration.
cause i find it too strange to sit at the same table where communication is limited.
i'd rather drop all the farce. i thank my sister for trying though.
i'm not ungrateful, i'm not cold, i'm not distant.
i just want to escape having to make small talk with my family members. (yes it has come to that desperate state.)

back to the point.
i miss V.
but i sure bet he's having a good time now.
ironic how they were envious of our relationship only to end up having him all to themselves now.
yea i'm not the prettiest nor the smartest,
i might not even have a few cents worth of gratitude in me when he was there.
so there, i thank you Vinod, for when you were always there.
i sure hope you're having a much better life than when you were stuck with sad ol' me.
Cause you really deserve what good things that come your way.