havent been on for a while!
was out in the merlion sun half the day yesterday to do the filming for a cooking show by cctv (china) and i got sunburnt!! now my shoulders are red, crinkled and permanently warm til it goes away. cool. now i got the tan i wanted. haha.

i wanna go to the beach. i wanna tan a real tan. i see the life others lead. and i want it. i'm not happy with what i have now. but i'm on the way there. slowly but steadily.

havent spoken to the boy in 4 days. i wonder how long will this continue. i'm tired, fed up, angry, sad and most certainly frustrated.

gonna book myself a massage next week, and a manicure. yes ive got some nails now.