i am the type who is strong headed (or so i like to think)
but even then, i do admit my mistakes (except to v, cause i'm always right v, you know that. lol)

one of the wrong i've ever done to anyone in my sec sch life is to Ms Candice. i would like to apologise to her. she came to ask if she could join my group of girls (fen, shan, qhong, eve) and i was the messenger. the verdict was no, and i had to break it to her. still not proud of what i did. but i became her friend in the end, and i hope that it was ok for her.

my friends, my group of girls, all mean something to me. they shine in their own ways nobody can smite. they are their own person. but there will always be the core. the ones that know your mind even if you guys dont meet/talk for eons.
that core group is sufficient. the others are a bonus. those who really know me, know i can go out of my way to catch a falling friend. i remember all my sec sch mates. and if whoever doesnt contact me, no biggie for me or for them. i dont miss them, and i bet they dont miss me either. cause i wasnt their buddy.

as for living in my shadows, JM, that is not my friggin' problem. to each her own character. forgive me if you dont stand out. forgive me that i am the way i am. LOUD & DRAMATIC. i am and always will be. dont use the word 'us' because you are speaking for yourself. still hiding in the shadows of others? i am right where i am, and loving it.

the really evil thing i could have done, is to ignore your little tirade. but i wont.

went for sheesha on cny night with v kev jermaine
weird flavours..the grape wasnt grapey, but was powdery
the coke was strong and fizzy
didnt try the rose tho
and jermaine's food didnt come even after an hour of waiting. and the waitress gave us a blank look when we informed her
whats the name of the place? al-shiekh or something? never go there again.
*ps: my 4-man theory still stands uncorrected
highlight of the day - jermaine asked me if i had a tissue. when i said no, it somehow made me feel like a man. LOL.

this one with a weird mind
that one want but dont want
then there are quarrels over nothing
the other one hand itchy
that one got some hidden issues
cracks are showing
others will be happy
its time to move on

sheen, need you to organize a gathering
before ter leaves
anyway he might be on the same flight as jac on 25 feb
ter's holding on to my bobbi brown
i need it bak
hang in there

evie can we finally set a date pls
dont go minah on me and disappear
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i just wanna add that maybe 5 is too much. 4 always seem to go well.
loyalties shift. some are easier to poach, others not.
relationship lines drawn are so confusing to remember.

no one wants to say it out:
hongzhen chose girlfriend over friends.
rod and jermaine cant get along.
jayson puts himself on one side.
kev tries to sit in the middle.
jac and vinod chooses side, leaves the rest behind.
when jac leaves, jermaine will disappear and that leaves vinod, me and the occasional kev.
we will go back to wala separately, end up seeing the other group, start meshing, keep silent, thrash it out, see who wins, secretly hate one another.
it's all fun and games to me.
cause i simply tag along and watch the show.
sometimes i wonder if i had a part to play in manipulating the situation.
it would be cool to take credit for the mess.

have a wonderful chinese new year everybody.

from
the sick dark reccesses of my mind

monday food tour
tuesday food tour
wednesday food tour
thursday concuss half a day
friday car rally & FLAME ON with the sardines
saturday i hope po po bought a lot of abalone and will cook shark's fin
sunday MONEY MONEY MONEY

life is cool.

i dont have much to say or comment about recently.
too much drama followed by no drama = lull of the storm , so i'll save up whatever energy i have.
i guess i'd like to disappear for a while, resurfacing if we're sleeping over again. not much time left til miss jac is gonna go. boohoo.

things to do:
play audition everyday
meet eve

next week will be hectic once again. group tours on 4 out of 5 days.
it's thursday today, perhaps i can fool myself to believe its friday.. all the way up til 7.45am when i have to wake up for work.

no sleep tonight