it is times like this when you're sitting alone, no one disturbs you and there's nothing to do; you don't want to pick up a book to read,the tv is off, there's no music from the speakers, cause there's isn't any song that can really describe what you're feeling, nothing to hold on to, to look forward to, you're not expecting anything, you aint going anywhere, your mind is blank, your heart is empty that you realise for the first time, you're alone, and experiencing every second that ticks by.

十年之前
我不認識你　你不屬於我
我們還是一樣
陪在一個陌生人左右
走過漸漸熟悉的街頭

十年之後
我們是朋友　還可以問候
只是那種溫柔
再也找不到擁抱的理由
情人最後難免淪為朋友

Somebody save me
I don't care how you do it
I've been waiting for you

A Woman

"Be very careful if you make a woman cry, because God counts her tears.
The woman came out of a man's rib.
Not from his feet to be walked on.
Not from his head to be superior, but from the side to be equal.
Under the arm to be protected, and next to the heart to be loved."

a thought came to me:
that was so easy,
maybe i didnt mean much to start with.

if she was the one, the perfect one,
then why didnt you cherish every day you had together?

there are people who have the right to know.
but i dont have the courage to do so.
i never kiss and tell. figuratively speaking.

somebody just said to me, 'i want her back'.
doesnt that seem to be the current theme song?

she thinks i'm undecided.
i think i've made up my mind.
but you'll never know.

on other topics, i'll just wait and see where this is going.

it finally hit me last night.
for a while.

when it's over
a clean break is always good, not?
but it's also always hard to accomplish.

i belong to me - jessica simpson
i belong to me
i don't belong to you
my heart is my possession
i'll be my own reflection
i belong to me
i'm one not half of two
and if you're gonna love me
you should know this baby
i belong to me

i don't need somebody to complete me
i want you to know
i'll give up my love but i'm not giving up my soul

free spirit
last night, i had me first cig in months. liberating.
i dont know what and how to give away myself anymore. being in this relationship has taken a toll on my life. i have become meeker and more 'submissive' than i am. and it's not working out for me.

i am a free spirit, or so i wish to be. i have come to the end of the road where there is nothing more i can give you, nothing more you can take from me.

now i flit to where ever and whomever i please. i believe that i have that right. please don't bog me down. i will lose whoever i have to, to get my life back. and that includes each and everyone of you.

god help me.

choices
it seems that some things aren't right anymore.
all i really need now is
coffee sessions with eve roy ter
swimming and california-ing with KJVHJE and the occassional joel
no complications, hakuna matata.

*ps: V, i'm serious, you'll never know, perhaps you do need to see a doc.
you don't realise that you've been calling out for attention all the time? you say you dont, but if others could hear what you tell me, they'd throw you into a straight-jacket immediately.
you will find that i am kind.

what a fake
this is a farce. this is all a farce.
this friendship is a farce. this group is a farce. you are a farce.
i don't like you. i really don't like you. and i'm liking you even less as time goes on.
why?
this shows how much i'm worth. this shows how much you mean to me.
this shows how little faith i have in you, just like in the past.
she was right, i was blind-sided. not anymore. i've come to realise once more that you hadn't change. i was just trying to convince myself all along.
no more. my hypocrite-self ends here.

freaking birthday
this birthday thing is going down the drain.
remind me never to turn a year older, or if i do, not to celebrate in any way. cause there's nothing to celebrate about.

i don't feel like going to my own b-bash. let's cancel everything and stay home.

Crazy Woman
There is a crazed person out there.
This person, Lin Xiaoli, whoever she is, grabbed my photo on friendster and used it in her own profile.
It's an old photo of me, eve and sheen.

What in the world is she thinking?!

Christina Aguilera - Back to Basics Tour
i've got an additional ticket to Christina Aguilera's concert. Bosses bought 2 tix for me as a birthday present. haha.
my bf not so into her, but will go with me if there isnt anyone else to bring.
i chose the mosh pit rather than the seats on the side of the stadium.

any takers?
30 June, 8pm
Indoor Stadium

chevrons ktv on 9 june
please remember that all guys cannot wear bermudas and/or sandals.
and all 11B holders get duty-free beer!

9 june 2007
9.00pm
the chevrons, aviary ktv, king special room

1. eve
2. vinod
3. jermaine
4. joel
5. jacjacjac
6. kevin
7. xue
8. su
9. ling
10.chriz
11.eileen
12.sheen
13.roy
14.ter
15.yjl
16.de
17.juan
18.kam
19.sis


guys: please ask raymond and brian if they wanna come
JJG: wanna go for dinner before that? i'll pick a place, but any suggestions?

New York Photos
And now, the photos from New York. This is gonna be one long post.

19 April 2007
Mardi and I on SQ26


The Germany Landscape








Kuffler & Bucher Restaurant in the Germany Airport


First Thing We Could Find that said 'New York'


Traffic in New York (this is considered normal!)


Horse Carriages Outside Central Park


Trump Wollman Rink in Central Park


Sis and I along the streets


20 April 2007
Cooking Frenzy at Long Island City

Satay-Uncle Sam. and his helpers

Chwee Kuehs steaming

Roti Prata Curry Aroma


21 April 2007 - Actual Day
Boss doing his thing at the Cooking Demo


The Freaking Queue at each stall (it was still early in the day!)


Mr 'Char Kway Teow' Thye Hong Looking for a Chinese dinner after the event


22 April 2007
M&M Elvis Presly in the M&Ms Store - Times Square


P. Diddy's Sean John Advert - Times Square


Times Square in the Morning


Spider Man outside Toys 'R' Us



Gigantic Ferris Wheel in Toys 'R' Us with 328 Katong Laksa Nancy 'God-Ma'

The Barbie House

Superman Saves the Day (i went back upstairs just to get this pix for V. it was huge and hung from the ceiling)


Cool White Stretch Limo outside our Hotel


Church of Scientology of New York
i walked past this place at night while we were looking for a club. i couldnt believe my eyes, and the rest of them couldnt care less.


The World's Largest Store *macy's (love at first sight!)

Opp *macy's - Victoria's Secret


FIFTH AVE - whoopee!


Empire State Building

Inside ESB

The Air Up There



Top View of NYC




Madison Ave


Check out the huge bottle of Baileys. The small bottles are our normal bottle sizes.


Female NYPD cop


I honestly have no idea where is this.


Miss Liberty-far far away


Ellis Island






Pretty Flowers at Ellis Island


As promised, the world's cutest, prettiest baby. totally unedited.


911 Memorial Sculpture (near Ground Zero)



Woodsbury!


Lastly, a huge Toblerone in Germany