cant shake the feeling that i was at a recital.
that was a silly move. silly me. tsk. that'll be the last.

so again, i heard that jac and jermaine (and who knows who else) didnt really treat me as a friend. hokay. anyone wanna claim credit or deny that?

round and round it goes, where it stops nobody knows.

and the conclusion is that V and i are no longer friends.
bravo. its time that happened.
acid friend.

tomorrow might be the last day of my leave
where did all my time go man?!
that was FAST.

evie are you back in SG?
i miss yoou.

Maybe I'm Amazed
by Jem
Album: Music from the OC: Mix 2 (2004)

Maybe I'm amazed at the way you love me all the time
Maybe I'm afraid of the way I love you
Maybe I'm amazed at the way you pulled me out of time
and hung me on a line
Maybe I'm amazed at the way I really need you

Maybe I'm a girl and maybe I'm a lonely girl
who's in the middle of something
that she doesn't really understand

Maybe I'm a girl and maybe you're the only man
who could ever help me
Baby, won't you help me understand

Maybe I'm amazed at the way you're with me all the time
Maybe I'm afraid of the way I leave you
Maybe I'm amazed at the way you help me sing my song
Right me when I'm wrong
Maybe I'm amazed at the way I really need you

evelyn i miss you.
faster come back ok.
dont die in new zealand ok, thank you.

hi there,
i guess this is it.
closure.
i'll learn to live life without you.
thank you for all you've given me.

记得

谁还记得是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话
是我们以后的伤口
过了太久
没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后

我们都忘了
这条路走了多久
心中是清楚的
有一天有一天都会停的
让时间说真话
虽然我也害怕
在天黑了以后
我们都不知道会不会有遗憾

谁还记得是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句
是我们以后的伤口
过了太久
没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后

我们都累了
却没办法往回走
两颗心都迷惑
怎么说怎么说都没有救
亲爱的为什么
也许你也不懂
两个相爱的人
等对方先说找分开的理由

谁还记得爱情开始变化的时候
我和你的眼中
看见了不同的天空
走的太远 终于走到分岔路的路口
是不是你和我
要有两个相反的梦

谁还记得是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话
是我们以后的伤口
过了太久
没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后

我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后

this is the first and last time i'll voluntarily let someone make use of me

you read my blog
and you have the cheek to msn me and say 'i never make use of you'
and then arrange to meet me, obviously to get my namecard for your stinking project.
you see me, asked me for the card, never said another word to me, and left.

take my namecard, keep it.
call me when you feel up to it
and maybe i'll answer

enjoy your life in australia.
i never believed any of your bullshit since day one.

CAN'T WAIT TIL NEXT FRIDAAAAAAAAAY!

Friday - go with C to cut hair
Saturday - relak lah!
Sunday - visit grandma, eat nice food, go church
Monday - worry if office gonna call me
Tuesday - go crazy with freedom
Wednesday - dread going back to work tomorrow

i should take more leave man.

met evie yesterday at westmall mos burger
she was laughing at my old blog posts
and she's glad that she found her devianart account
you're welcome ah.
and no, it is not the policeman's fault that NPP closes at 10pm
they have to get off work too you know..
who ask you want to drink coke, don't want to go over earlier
we would've made it lor.

we were fun and funny
how come now we're not?
too somber..
but that's gonna change. yup.

today i feel lighter
i feel better
i feel happier

i feel great!

what does it take for someone to replace a photo of a person
i admit that i dont like to take photos
yk didnt have much photos of us
but i bet he had some

i saw his phone today
the wallpaper was of someone
someone not me
and i was stunned
that was fast

it was a photo of his ex
and he admits that he has feelings for her
i guess i was just the commercial break in between huh
lucky me

i just took a shower
and i sat on the floor
with the fan blowing my hair dry
i sat and cried

lord have mercy on me

it was 19 June 2007
9 days after my birthday

less than 3 months later
it is now 11 September 2007

in a brief second, i saw something that erased the best moments in my life
i now understand that it is time to return his keys
and get on with my life.

i've been made fortune's fool
and i guess i've been washed away by the beer and alcohol.
how easy, i should give it a try.

the best moments in my life. numb inside.

life is full of surprises
i've heard things that were said about me
things that i dont believe is true
maybe thats how the person sees me
it stings abit
but thats in the past now.

i'm comfortable now
where i am
having some peaceful days
which i like
just want to hang around and chill all day
wish everyday was a weekend
it doesnt come soon enough.

vinod,
keeping your distance does not mean disappear
but if it helps you cope, then by all means
i feel used that you only look for me when you need your testimonial
or when you need me for your project.
yes, that's probably why i am stalling, if you havent already figured that out.
it seems that this will be the way we communicate now
a one-way conversation.
i wish that in time, you'll find peace.

Love is friendship on fire.

ok fine, thank you fat lady. stop bugging my conscience.
but now i dont know if i shouldve asked you for that favour in the first place. haha.

i am so hungry now, i want to run to the malay chicken rice stall.
been eating very unhealthy these few days, McD, KFC, Rocky's pizza, chicken rice, duck rice. gawd i bet you feel fat thinking of what i've been eating.

ratatouille today. yay!
i miss blueberry bagel with cream cheese. and passion tea w/ raspberry.
i think since i have passion tea, i should just buy the freaking bottle of raspberry syrup..hmm gd idea.

lots of things have been happening
and i'm not gonna list it here
a blog is a public diary
and i dont intend to publicize this

to you,
if you squeeze, i'll suffocate and die
if you let me go, i'd have the choice to return

to you,
things are a mess now
i am confused
yes, even i dont know what i want
maybe i dont want what i want
maybe i do, i dont know

eve,
yes, laugh
for a long time since
drama is pursuing my life instead of yours
amusing
see you later

i'll be taking a short break in 2 weeks' time
21 sep-26 sep
yk is coming back to work
i hope things will be fine

i havent been happy for a while
i havent laughed for some time
did anyone notice
kinda lost interest in having fun
bored and boring

melancholic calm, calming melancholy
i listen to this many times everyday
someone out there is singing this for me

muse-unintended
You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You could be the one I'll always love
You could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions
You could be the one I'll always love

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

First there was the one who challenged
All my dreams and all my balance
She could never be as good as you

You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You should be the one I'll always love

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

Before you

Plain White T's

Hey there Delilah what's it like in New York City
I'm a thousand miles away but girl tonight you look so pretty
Yes you do
Times Square can't shine as bright as you
I swear it's true

Hey there Delilah don't you worry about the distance
I'm right there if you get lonely, give this song another listen
Close your eyes
Listen to my voice it's my disguise
I'm by your side

Oh, it's what you do to me

Hey there Delilah I know times are getting hard
But just believe me girl someday I'll pay the bills with this guitar
We'll have it good
We'll have the life we knew we would
My word is good

Hey there Delilah I've got so much left to say
If every simple song I wrote to you would take your breath away
I'd write it all
Even more in love with me you'd fall
We'd have it all

A thousand miles seems pretty far
But they've got planes and trains and cars
I'd walk to you if I had no other way
Our friends would all make fun of us
And we'll just laugh along because
We know that none of them have felt this way

Delilah I can promise you that by the time we get through
The world will never ever be the same
And you're to blame

Hey there Delilah you be good and don't you miss me
Two more years and you'll be done with school
And I'll be making history like I do
And you'll know it's all because of you
We can do whatever we want to
Hey there Delilah here's to you
This one's for you

We shall fight thee, thou shall never win.
-Class of 4e3, Year 2001


Remember this?