i quit.
yes i did. yes i did.

grinning like a Cheshire.
yes i am. yes i am.

holidays with loved ones.
yes i will. yes i will.

i am free. (in 2 months)

Happy Birthday.

You've got me all wrong by Dios Malos

You got me all wrong
You left me under water
To tumble and fall
So many years ago

You got me all wrong

You got me all wrong
You wandered away
Without which I am nothing
Much more than I can say

Why have we come to this.

Vindicated by Dashboard Confessional

Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye

And roped me in
So mesmerizing, so hypnotizing
I am captivated

I am Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along

And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself

So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intentions
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me so isolated, so motivated
I am certain now that

So turn
Up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment, fall forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'd be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away

Slight hope
It dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption

My current mood for a while now. Slow beats, sad violin.
This is for you, where ever you are.

Eastern Glow by The Album Leaf

One by one
We force ourselves
Turn it on
It comes in waves

Try to find
Maybe this time
Don't turn your head
it's easy to forget how we were

Once inside
We've made it here
We struggle with the lights
They never go away

What have we learned
It's the same old things
That drive us here
And never go away
We are changed

Through the tides
Make your way
You will find the time
A comfort inside

Here I wait
In the safe place
Where we were so many years ago
So many years ago

One by one
We close our eyes
And turn to waves
As a thousand nights go by

One by one
We close our eyes
And we turn to the waves
And a thousand nights went by

this song has been lying in my mp3 player for some time now...

Eve the Apple of my Eye by BELL X1

You left it, I sent it
I want it back
You left it, I sent it
I want it back

If I had you here, I'd clip your wings
Snap you up and leave you sprawling on my pin
This plan of mine is oh so very lame
Can't you see the grass is greener where it rains

You left, I died,
I went and you cried
You came, I think
But I never really know
I've served my time
I've watched you climb
The wrong incline
But what do I know

Accept it, Don't let it
Turn the screw
Accept it, And let it
Scream back at you

Now this applies equally to you and I
The only thing that we share
Is the same sky
These empty metaphors
They're all in vain
Like can't you see the grass is greener where it rains

And I lie behind you
And I cradle you in the palm of me
And I pat your hair down
I think will we sink or swim
'Cause we could do either on a whim

In the garden Snake was a charmin'
And Eve said let's give it a try
Now lead us not into temptation
But Eve is the apple of my eye

Cartwheels by Reindeer Section

My wounds are nicely salted dear
I never got to thank you right
I was finished way before I could see
Quite what you had in mind for me

I'm doing cartwheels

Now the pessimism in me yawns
As I'm pissing on their perfect front lawns
A voice calls out behind my back
and i take off into the grounds

I'm doing cartwheels

It'll all tie me up into knots

I didn't mean to speak out of turn
Now you can sit and watch me squirm
now the party's really in full swing
I wish i had a friend I could ring

I'm doing cartwheels

You're really loving this aren't you dear
Now you've got me on the ropes out here
With nowhere else to run to now
Just stay and face the music

It'll all tie me up into knots

spent the night talking and cracking each other up
but the best part was a great big hug from ky at the end
makes everything seem ok

oh my gawd, kyan is such a darling, he's practically saved me from ultimate boredom.
now i just gotta concentrate on not getting screwed by boss.
i cant take it anymore. i need a job as a kopi-soh.

dont make me wear pink ky.

are we playing the 'confused' game?
i want out.
i need a sign. give me a sign.
a big one.

1. beijing-sunburnt hands and fond memories
2. can't you see i was put in this world to watch over you, like how you are for him
3. crazy tension and amazing body language

gonna be in beijing this month..12th march - 19th march.
and i still havent planned and organized what we're supposed to do there.
if we come back empty handed or one photo less, i'm screwed. yay.


and i cant stop thinking about the nooka. thanks thomas, look what you've gotten me into.
maybe i'll go buy it later. grrr.