had half a happy post which i did a week ago, that's going down the drain.
here's something cryptic and unpleasant.
i remember i used to promise myself that i wouldnt be like them.
i would be one of the cool ones. those that are ok with anything. i used to tsk others who were less forgiving.
something changed, something changed me. it was a good thing, well up till now.
is it me? am i turning into a dowdy plain jane? what happened to my spunk? maybe that's why. others have it yet i lost mine.
or maybe is it you? you who are too blind to see. too blind and new to know what i really need. you're a challenge, you.
you do things technically, you don't do things that are expected of you. that i expect of you. and that proves frustrating results.
i would have never let other people get to me like this, or let anyone get the better of me. i played this game before, and i always win. i got to where i am now.
so i'm gonna grit my teeth, smile, and play this game. even if it kills me.
