time for an update!

bought tommie a diana f+ snow cat edition with instant back for his birthday.
had it sent from HK.
so i am nice and broke now.
for y'all who is as clueless as i was, it's an instant camera (it only becomes instant when you use the add-on, else it's just a regular toy lomo film camera) that uses fuji's 'polaroid'. popular little gadget with camera and lomo fanatics, now that Polaroid is gone from the market.

here's it:


been buttering quite often nowadays..not as often as some of the other girls but still...
it's fun, we've got a nice bunch of regular friends who show up..
i think they should give us a VIP card or something. lol. so thick-skinned

new school term has started, doing Managerial Accouting module now. hate it when it's on Fridays. ah well at least thats the only module i have. plus i passed the Effective Comm waiver test so that's one more down.
this school thing, apart from being time consuming, is actually a piece of cake to pass. the study guide is excellent, so it's just how hardworking i wanna be to get distinctions. knowing me, i think not. ha.

when life doesn't suck, there isn't much to talk about, is there? so i spend my time and money on luxurious pampering treats!

here's what i think about some places...

massage:
Amore - great atmo @ Bugis, expensive at $98 per session. get vouchers from ebay
True Spa - crappy service, crappy auntie masseuse with 'dig ear'-long nails
Touche - my ultimate fav masseuse, Karen @ palais renaissance. book her waaay in advance, doesn't fail to put me to sleep everytime

facial:
Face Affair - fantastic products 'dermedex'. don't upgrade facial services cause it's pointless. products can be bought online at much cheaper price.
Bioskin - nice deco, doesn't do 'squeezing and blackhead removal'. uses impressive-sounding machines that does i-don't-know-what.
The Ultimate - expensive packages. i think they're better for massages anyway gonna try it one day using sis's package.
Touche - pure convenience's sake cause i've got a package there. but it's not bad, though the contour of the bed is a li'l weird, gives me a stiff back.

grooming:
Strip - Helen at Wheelock, i always cannot remember which level she's on. cause there's 2 outlets. she's fast and painless. she's the reason i got myself a package there, so she better not go anywhere.
Browhaus - Mama Bilkis at Wheelock. again, cannot remember which level. but she's gives my eyebrows a really good shape, which is not easy for me to achieve. really expensive though, $16 per session without package (i think)
InBeauty - Candy at AMK outlet. she's the other person who can give me a good eyebrow trim. but unlike Bilkis, her standard is not always there. ($7)

best lippy at the mo' : Carmex
best foundation : creamy stick foundation from Max Factor
best concealer : Maybelline (the pen-shaped one where you twist the end and it comes out at the brush-tip)
best make-up remover : biore wet wipes (simply because i'm lazy)
best facial wash : apart from dermedex (the trial pack says "caution: you will fall in love with this product" LOL!), Elizabeth Arden toner and cleanser in-one
best fashion blogshop : acrossthebloodyuniverse.com their stuff is wonderful and sells out fast. just that most of their stuff are for tall girls with great figures, so that rules out 90% of what i can wear. there's still some great finds though.

*ps: this list is neither exhausive nor descriptive, and is somewhat biased :)

Letters to the people I know

Dear Evelyn,
I had fun on saturday, I hope we can meet more often, like every week. I've missed you. See you soon.


Dear Chriz
Thanks for your crazy parties, and sorry I haven't been attending all of them. I don't have the stomach for so much mad fun like you do.

Dear Xue
I like it when we sit, eat and chat. Recently, the conversation became quite prickly, but I hope that everything straightens itself out for you. I wouldn't want to see you regret any decisions. Dinner again soon?


Dear Sheena
You're not around. You haven't been for some time. You're always not free for us, but I see you being free for the same activities with other people. No, I'm not so polite that I won't point all these out. Don't hate me.


Dear Shan
I am looking forward to December. I hope I lose some fats in time. I hope you will have fun, and I wish you aren't as stressed out as you are right now. I wish I was a wedding planner and I could take all your problems away. But I am not, and all I can do is offer you my assistance in whatever you need. Please let me know ok.


Dear Kyan
I was mad at you for some time. But that's quite over now, and I hope you and I are still jolly.


Dear Vinod
I don't know why I am still mad at you, but I still am. I don't know if you understand how and why I felt like I did back then, but it still is a valid feeling. I don't know if I have forgiven you, or if there is anything to forgive at all. But all I know is that I still don't wish to meet you. Though I haven't a clue why. I hope one day this ends, or it might just stay at the back of my mind forever, and I don't wish for that. I want closure, but I want it without involving you. Catch 22.


Dear Tommie
Your birthday is coming, I hope you'll like your present. I bought it 2 months before your birthday, and it is sitting in my house, unwrapped. I am afraid that if I wrapped it, I might give it to you before the day comes. I suck at giving surprises, I even told you I bought it when I'm supposed to keep it a secret. Thankfully I didn't tell you what it was. You are a difficult person to buy a present for. I hope you'll be happy when you see it, and that it's something you want.

met mardi and kelly for dinner last night. tom yum soup is yums. when is tommie gonna bring me to far east long queue jap??

busy busy til school starts. friday night massage and dinner with girlies, saturday butter with chums (again i know).

forced myself to release the book last night so that i can get some sleep. knowing me, i'll finish it in a flash. not good, need to prolong this as much as i can or i'll end up with nothing soon.

anyways...tom yum. yums.

i'm pulling a bella on 10 June this year.

Thomas said that Panda turned into a moth and came back for visit last night.



Tears of sadness in my pillow.

Written on Day Three, 16 April 2009, Thursday late at night

I havent had a proper night's sleep since the fourteenth, neither did thomas. Peanut keeps mewing at night, often looking lonely and bored. We know he knows his brother is gone. The first night i was so tired i fell asleep after a while, but my mind woke up numerous times throughout the night, each time thinking and missing Panda. The next night my eyes stung cause it was so dry and puffy. Today here i am today, unable to sleep at 2am.

It's hard walking into Thomas' house and not seeing my kitty there. Peanut sits alone on the living room floor. I keep imagining Panda right along there with him, sprawled on the floor like he always does, lying at his favourite spot on kitchen floor cloth. Even opening the fridge makes me want to peer at the top to see if he's looking back down. Peanut sits alone at Panda's favourite spots.

Since yesterday we've been letting Peanut remain in Thomas' room. It seems he's started sniffing around a lot. Wanting to look into cupboards, probably trying to find his brother. Our heart aches for him. We accompany him to sleep on the bed. He's used to having some body warmth and cant be left alone. We tried putting him back in the balcony but he wouldnt stop crying out. I realised he just wanted some activities cause he's used to having a playmate, so we brought him downstairs to wander.

when he wouldnt return home, we tried to make him and he ended up wandering close to the spot where Panda died. I couldnt bear to let him near it. I couldnt bear to go near it. Thomas, who has been immensely depressed walked over to the spot and stared, spacing out. He's been sighing a lot everyday. it's not healthy and i dont know if i can handle his lack of self-help much longer. we need to move on, we need to try hard. I dont think ive been allowed to sufficiently grieve cause since day two ive had to put on a brave face for both our sake, especially his. He needs consoling, so i keep my sadness locked in.

Thomas' mom blames herself for asking his dad to come home early to bring Panda down for a walk...Thomas' dad blames himself for leaving his beer session early cause there was a guy there he didnt want to hang out with...Thomas blames himself for not going to work on that day due to sickness so his dad did not pick him up and got home earlier than usual. I wonder where do i fit in...

I shed a couple of tears tonight but it's ok. I just miss him, that's all.